What am I to you? A piece of shit? maybe

Where never I look back into my diary or even scrolling through my facebook, I see your status and all those post but everything turns back into darkness in my heart. Why? Why do you actually hurt me like that? What and why did we do this to each other ? Why are we at the cold end? Why are we , Why are we? I want to apologize and you wouldn't be a gentleman and forgive me? Who do you think you are now? A guy older than me? A guy who you would think that the girl you like will like you? Obviously a NO!!! you will fail in my eyes, You disturb my brain, I don't care what but you are puzzling me at any part of this world~ This time I have to say this 'I HATE YOU!' You have not given me a chance, What do you want from me? Tell me?! I will change~